The Fringe of Uncertainty.

How annoying is AirAsia when it lags up right at the moment you're paying for your airline ticket. It fucks everything up. Oh what a hassle.

Recently I've been more involved in the Catholic youth. No ulterior motive there, just enjoy the company of other Catholics. I've always felt the connection between me and the Catholic church. The conservative and traditional way of worshiping God. It may have been due to my upbringing in a Chinese style, English speaking family. Not as strict as in a chinese family like many of my cousins and not as nonchalant as other liberal thinking english educated parents.

I wonder is this really the thesaurus method that my Design Studio tutor has been preaching of expanding topics.
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Oh what a semester it has been.
I got a job after two years of mum nagging me, our little group of architects is more defined that ever, I joined the church youth band and I'm going to run a 12km marathon in 3 weeks.

The Job
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Nothing really hard about this. "Easy job" - as my superior likes to say every time he explains a chore to me. The money is barely enough but food is provided and anything left over is for keeps. Though not really achieving my target of financial independence, it does lessen the burden on my bank account.

the Little Group of Sexy Architects
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There's no denying it. Cliques can either strengthen or isolate people. I have first hand experience of being deserted one too many times but there's this instinct in me; that I need to plan things to do as a group and that the group needs an identity.
I've been doing that since form4, creating group activities, naming our group, and even a few times ex-communicating people. I'm virtually a Nazi =\


I have no idea where I got this trait from. In primary school, being with the cool kids must have planted the seed of dictatorship. I was never at the top, always following the crowd, playing follow the leader. And now as a young adult, I push my ideals onto other people. And I get upset when others hijack my plan and distort it. Still I'm trying to change, to be more democratic and listen to others.

I really enjoy being with these bunch of people. Everyone's so different and yet similar in our thoughts and passion. 3 guys and 3 girls. Equilibrium. Balance. We need to hang out more so that after 5 years of studying architecture, we can tell our kids about the wonderful people whom we studied with back when we were young.

Church youth
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Now this is something new for me. I have never wanted to belong in a Youth group. It's not like I have bad memories, only that I didn't enjoy sharing myself to others for God. I've been in a few youths prior to this and not one that i stuck with longer than a year. I've felt stronger being in Adelaide, stronger in a sense of my devotion to God. It's the whole ordeal of transplanting into a new place with no familiar faces. The only one you can lean on and share your thoughts is God. Now I don't claim to be a religious person or a pious one and I may lack knowledge to quote bible verses to others, but one thing I know is that I love God and want to be saved from my daily temptations and sins.

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To be in love is to look at someone and feel happy. The lack of reasoning. You don't have to have an urge to be with that person and to date them and be officially together. No, on the contrary the love between friends is so much more powerful than a love originating from a crush.

Studio [1]

Can't believe I'm blogging again after 4 years being absent. Used to love this so much, then along came facebook and all my thoughts could be safely channeled out through short updates.

Well being a blog about my thoughts studying architecture and life here in Adelaide in general, I find it suiting that I'm currently writing this in the airport on the last day of the semester as im waiting for my flight back to Malaysia. After being so busy with assignments in this last few days, I absent-mindedly got my check-in time confused and am now paying for it with a 2nd ticket bought just to reach Melbourne in time for my flight back to Malaysia.

Architecture has always been more of a passion for expression rather than the dry boring technical stuff we have to first learn in Uni. But I digress, I'm not here to talk about the stuff I learn but more of a reflection of who I will become.

I met this one girl in Adelaide, her bubbly attitude towards life inspires me more every time. There's something about her that I find similar in a very small minority of my female best-friends I have. A reassurance of sort.

She got me thinking yesterday. What have we learn in this semester. Aside from all the boring technical input, the human side of architecture is what's best taken home after all is done. Personally I have learn that perseverance must never be confused with progress. I always thought the more I put into my work, the higher a grade I would get. But that isn't always the case with everyone. Works for some, but not me.

What exactly do I mean by that. To say putting in 10hours of effort against 10minutes of pure random thought generation is a simple generalization of things.
The formula for success in terms of a week is 3days idea generation and 4days of no sleep. I've tried both, and both ended in failure. Just generating ideas while executing it an hour before a studio is just dumb. Putting in a whole week of work with no solid concept is also pretty dumb.

Well anyways, my plane's just arrived. I'll continue this later on while I'm waiting in Melbourne for my flight back to Malaysia. Ta~